The 39-year-old Trotwood woman’s absentee ballot arrived a couple of days earlier, but she still hadn’t filled it out.
“It’s voting time, and I still don’t know where either side stands on the issues … all I’ve heard is a lot of bickering,” she told a group of fellow Southwest Ohioans during a Your Voice Ohio Zoom meeting Oct. 7.
It was the first time the woman talked to anyone this year about the presidential election because she feared being shamed or attacked again.
That’s what happened after people found out she voted for Donald Trump in 2016 after voting for Barack Obama before that. Her name is being withheld to avoid any more blowback.
This year, the civic duty to help choose the next U.S. president weighs heavy.
“If you don’t pick the right person,” the woman said, “it could like, literally, be a civil war that goes on in our country.”
Ohioans were uneasy a month away from Election Day.
The 2020 presidential election feels different, they said, with more at stake.
They’re not only worried about the deep and bitter divisions separating Americans, they’re fearful about where the country is heading even as the deadly pandemic – which has already killed more than 5,075 Ohioans – rages on.
United in concern
The Trotwood woman was the only person in the Southwest Ohio YVO group to say she was undecided. The others were not asked and did not say who they supported. But based on what they said about the candidates and the issues, they appeared to break this way: One Trump voter, two Joe Biden voters, and a Libertarian supporting that party’s candidate, Jo Jorgensen.
But all expressed some level of concern.
“I’m scared and worried about our country and the young children growing up,” said James Porter, an 82-year-old retired school teacher who lives in the GOP stronghold of Warren County.
He said about eight of every 10 signs on his street are for Trump, and he thinks his county will likely vote for Trump again.
“But that doesn’t mean everyone is happy with Trump,” he said. “I think we’re disgusted with both sides.”
Michelle MacCutcheon, a former membership coordinator for Ohio’s Libertarian party, said the anxiety this election cycle began during the last, particularly after Hillary Clinton won the popular vote in 2016 but lost the election.
Many Clinton voters felt slighted. And instead of reaching out to the 46% of eligible voters who stayed home in 2016, people on both the left and right shamed anyone who didn’t think like them, she said, expressing empathy for the Trotwood woman, who considers herself an independent.
“I feel for her so much on that,” said MacCutcheon, who said she has long been shamed for voting third party.
On top of that, there’s the pandemic. It’s prompted people across the country to tighten their circles with people of “like thought and like mind” and that gave people a bolder voice, MacCutcheon said.
“And also we’re angry, we’re frickin’ angry at the fact that COVID and our government or however you want to look at it, took these things away from us,” she said.
Concerns for voting
Whether it was losing time with someone in a nursing home, or, like MacCutcheon, missing the birth of a grandchild, those are moments gone forever.
There also were worries about the election process itself, particularly during the pandemic – when so many Ohioans are voting early or voting absentee – and amid such deep political division. Some worried about intimidation, or even violence at the polls. They also worried about how long it would take to determine who won – Trump or Biden.
David Funck(cq), who lives in suburban Cincinnati, said other countries have long offered many options to help citizens vote.
That hasn’t happened in the U.S. and, amid the pandemic, there are new obstacles that undermine people’s confidence in the voting system or make voting more difficult or even possibly unsafe.
He said it’s “unconscionable” that some politicians are demeaning the U.S. Postal Service and its ability to deliver ballots and elections in general.
At the same time, he pointed out the fight over allowing only a single ballot drop box in each of Ohio’s 88 counties, no matter if thousands of voters or more than a million live in the county.
“The question becomes why are we not able to provide safe voting in every manner to everyone at this point,” Funck said.
Funck, who put much of the blame for the divide in the country on Trump and the GOP, said he was surprised there were any undecided voters left so close to such a monumental election.
The Trotwood woman tried to explain, both her own situation and that of many people she knows.
“When you look at people like me, where they may live in poverty, always remember Maslow’s pyramid,” she said.
The pyramid represents a psychologist theory of a hierarchy of needs. If the two foundation layers are not fulfilled – food, water, rest, safety and security – nothing else can be accomplished.
“Unless your basic needs are met, things like politics do not play into your mindset. They just don’t,” the woman said.
The woman said she tried to watch the debate but was turned off by the fighting and never did learn what Trump or Biden planned to do if elected.
“If I discuss it with African Americans, I’m attacked, and then if I discuss it with Republicans, they don’t understand where I’m coming from as an independent,” said the woman, who is Black.
“It’s almost like I can’t feel the way I want to about the election,” she said. “It’s almost like I’m silent.”